Learn from the past...don't mess up your future.

Man I can be my worst enemy sometimes! I block a good thing called "Love." I am always trying to figure out why I am so scared of love (when it comes to loving and receiving love from a man). If we think about Freud, then I would say this goes back to the man that showed me love when I was little. Mmmmm........that would be no one. I don't want to blame my father, but I want to blame him. Sounds crazy right? He was the first man to not send any love my way, he was the first man to disappoint me, and he was the first man that I learned I could not trust.
Well, a few years ago, my father said to me "get over it!" Well now that I am 30 years old, I need to get over it and move on. I am going to mess up "real love" if I can't learn to trust a man. I've done it before and I don't want to do it again. I am going to learn from my mistakes of the past. Keeping my guard up and avoiding real feelings is not going to get me anywhere. Being paranoid and not trusting others, is not going to get me anywhere. In this new chapter of my life, I am going to pray hard and love hard. If I just trust GOD, then I know that everything in my life will be just fine.

My Future...

Guess who's Bizzzaacckkk!

How weird is it that I thought about blogging again? You know taking all the random things I think about and putting them on-line for the public to view. Haha! As I signed on to my account, I realized that I haven't blogged since this exact week, two years ago. Wow! So it's like my anniversary!

My thoughts for today:

*I feel really blessed to be where I am at today. I always say if you dream it and believe it, then you can achieve it. I really feel cool. because I know that God is always listening to me. However, he has his own plan for me and I know that he does things on his own time. Anyways, I am happy and I know my future will be awesome.

*My baby girl: she is my little super woman. She has transitioned so well during this move to NJ. I am so proud of her! She's doing really well in school, and she has met a couple of new friends. She will also be playing the violin this year.

*I am opening myself up to another human being. I always remain so guarded: the wall is always up around me. I trust God more than I trust him; therefore, I will run with this feeling that I am feeling. I should not feel bad or weired out, because I feel good about who I choose to love. He's like a breath of fresh air! I am so ready to take things day-by-day, and see where things go.

*Pray....Pray for all those young black brothers out there who hate themselves, and now they want to hate and hurt others. It's a shame that people can sepnd most of their time making other people's lives miserable, because they are miserable. "Misery loves company!" Black men: love yourselves! Don't just depend on your women to love you. If you love yourself and respect yourself, you tend to make better decisions for your life, as well as think about the people who love you too. Be smart young men! Stay alive out there!

Well, it's been a long time. Maybe I'll be back soon to give the world a taste of Key!

Peace,
~Key~

Key to Success #2:

Love Life!

Be blessed, love God, love life, love family, love friends, love your job, love the people that hate you...they should motivate you to do well in life, and enjoy what you have.

PS- If you don't love life: Make change!

Welcome to the Key to Success blog! Apparently this is the thing to do in 2008. So yes, I am here attempting to blog. I always share my 2 cents (my opinions) with others. I also tend to share my "Keyisms" with people, even if they don't want to hear it. Believe it or not...I really have some good things to say. Hopefully, I can use this blog to share my randoms thoughts, "Keyisms," or the things my grandmother always said.